Went out the whole day... with my aunt and uncle...
Somehow it wasn't really uplifting and seriously, it gets exhausting just keeping up with appearances...
Especially when there's so many things you have to watch out for.
Last night, i felt so sad... like everything was crashing and you start thinking if life is really going as smoothly as you think it is... I guess... its been too long being away from people near you, too long being away from people who care about you... too long being away from people who love you and want to be with you...
Thats why... i wanted a break from all of that... for once, i didnt want to feel neglected, ignored, a second fiddle, i didnt want to feel that i was another name on msn, didnt want to feel too distant from everyone around me, i just wanted... that human touch... but relatives are relatives... no matter what... its them who wants to feel pampered and paid attention to, its themselves who want conversation to revovle around... or maybe they're just the type that aren't really interested in my life...
But then again... this is probably what its going to be like when i reach home.. no one really wants to know about my life here anyway... why should i expect them too right? after all, do i really wanna know about their life for the past 4 months?
yea i do... i wanna know everything... =(
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