times are hard

hello. how are you?

Let me take a good look at you. You dont look so good, both externally and internally. your eyebags are worse, your face is etched with sadness and your eyes are swollen from crying. Your heart is broken and your mind is confused. There's an emptiness inside you that you think noone can fill, your arms are weak and your legs cant move. Your depression is back. Your smile is gone and once in a while, you go off in a daze, staring at nothing in particular and your eyes will swell with tears. Why is this happening?

you smile an empty smile when u see your friends, you laugh a meaningless laugh. your eyes betray how u really feel about yourself, your thoughts are hidden from the rest of the world. you'r afraid, you're tired and you're confused. you want everything to end, really, everything. You think its hard to carry on, you think its ridiculous to go on pretending and you cant be bothered with frivolous matters. You feel like life has nothing more to offer, you feel numb from everything.

you want to give it up, dont you? no, i dont think thats what you really want. i think what you need to do is cry it out. you havent done that for quite some time, you havent cried out for a very long time. Get it out, you'll feel better. Cry for everything, cry for your troubles, cry for others, cry for your friends, cry for your life. Cry for whats wrong, cry for whats not there. cry for the horrible people out there, cry for the hurts they've caused. Cry for the world, cry for yourself. And after you're done with all of that, move on. move on with your life, theres a long way more to go.