take me away

Sometimes there are just somethings u cant help doing or some people you cant help seeing.
maybe you can blame it on lack of determination.

but i think that the human body is divided into three parts: the heart, the mind, the flesh. And most times, the mind doesnt rule...

things the mind says:
(stop seeing him, its a dead end and there's no way he likes you in that way. He's already been clear of what he wants and you're obviously not one of them)

things the heart says:
(you like him! maybe he'll change for you... you're lonely, he's there! go for it)

things the flesh says:
(you're physically attracted to him, you feel comfortable with him! there's nothing to lose anyway...)

In reality, he may be the lone wolf that leads me to where i am now with his praises, flattery, touches and gifts. but ultimately, its my own weakness that points me to the direction im taking. So here i stand, hesistant about the leap i seem to be taking, with only certain people (friends i love) pulling me back and holding me in place. and yet, i'm faintly attracted to anything about him, to whichever direction he is.

its strange i guess. knowing full well that its a mistake and yet blindly drawn to it. why is it so?
He has strange powers over me... I'm just too weak.

i think now i understand why girls make the mistakes they do. why some girls end up with horrible relationships and dead-end jerks. Its because of this.. this inability to let the mind rule. but im glad i havent fallen. im glad i have people who bring me back to reality.

need to constantly remind myself "its wrong, its wrong, its wrong"

i hope my friends dont let me surrender so easily... take me away.