Keeping it Simple

There are a few things that can make me happy and unfortuantely, alot that can make me sad.

I hate uncertainty... the fear of not knowing whats going to happen, the constant sense of being lost, of going in what might be a wrong direction. Thats why i always have organizers, schedules, planned itineries. When i meet people, its for a purpose and not to dawdle, i dont like to be idle which is one reason thats making me so damn pissed off at the office and im sorry to say this, i dont like to wait either. No one likes to wait... its whether u have the patience to scream after or not... fortunately, i have alot of patience... My mum and sis has trained me well... =P

But someone told me there's nothing wrong with not knowing... indeed, faith acts upon that very notion of believing in what we do not fully know, trusting in what we cannot see. Uncertainty also lends a certain element of fun and adventure, something along those lines of ploughing into the unknown and attaining that adrenaline rush from the thrill of surprises...

Maybe thats why i know deep down i wont go as far as some people, because i have the fear... fear of change... i hate anomie. that vacumm between one state and the other, the transition... it scares me so much... for a moment,..even if its just for a moment...

Anomie...