me

Actually, i am quite getting tired of this site. it has nothing new, nothing special, kind of symptomatic of my own life. nuff said.

maybe i should transfer to a new place. damn. But that would be so reckless, impulsive, irresponsible of me. nuff said again.

I need to think if i really want to let people read my stuff. at the end of the day, whose opinions does it matter? It is most probably, lets all face it, a need that i have to show off my not too fantastic english skills coupled with my innate and deeply traummatic desire to be accepted and acknowledged as part of the "hip" teens world. Damn adolescence and my insecurities.

I am the epitome of contradictions. Totally against blogs but here i am signing up for one. Patience! endurance! but then again i'm also not sure ifthis website can last forever. Maybe i'll go and take a look around. Doesn't really look too bad, in fact i don't suppose anyone might be reading it. perhaps i'll take my first step and make this public. But then again maybe not. Damn, just gave away another character flaw, indeciseveness. Damn Damn Damn.

Again, this is all going to boil down to me, this selfish ass. haha. i am incapable of making my own decisions. it is time i learn to be independent, stonger willed and determined. hmmm... let's just work on it later, or next year. hmmm. i'll never learn.