This week has been terrible. I've had the worst exams experience with a complete dsaster for my training and development paper. completely didn't know what to write, had no more time for it, extremely messy style of writing. fuck.
Then i had to bang everything on the bloody Business Processes paper and what the fuck. it just killed me. cannot do a single shit. what the fuck. why the hell do u give out a sample paper when it is no where representative of the fucking original you fucking bastard..
And then what the fuck... it just gets downhill from there on...
I know i should take things easy and i know that u can fucking tell me.. "oh no.... poor thing..." "don't worry" fuck u.
You obviously dont know me well enough to know that this means alot to me.. and you can debate about why it should mean so much to me and that grades arent everything. yes they arent but unfortunately, my self-esteem is tied to it. And if u cant recognize that.. fuck u as well.
Im never going to call again, thats a promise to myself.
From now on, i'll head on by myself. i can do it.. i can do it alone and i dont need any support from you.
there, fuck you you bloody fucking piece of shit.
1 comment:
disappointment sucks.
trust me, i know.
i don't think there's a feeling thats worse than the feeling of helplessness where you think that all you've done and put in has come to naught. The feeling you get when you think you've totally screwed something up and then it happens again. and again. and again. and you think it's never going to get better.
The good news is that it can get better.
It take a better (wo)man to get up from disappointment.
Quite honestly, you're not the first person in history to have put their hopes on something and have been disappointed.
Read my blog and you'll see that i also went through this a few terms back.
The question that you have to ask youself at the end of the day is whether not doing well has taken anything from you than your self-esteem (and even then, only for a while).
rant, friend, you need to. But remember that at some point, you have to get your bearings back. The best thing about not doing well is that you get the chance to shock people with how resilient you are by bouncing back and owning the next term.
it's totally possible. and i speak from experience
gimme a ring if you need to talk? my line's always open.
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